Someone From The Future

"....And I never thought that I'm so strong 
I stuck on you and wait so long 
But when love comes it can't be wrong
Don't ever give up just try and try to get what you want
Cause love will find the way.... 
When you love someone
 Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you 
When you hold your love 
Don't ever let it go 
Or you will loose your chance 
To make your dreams come true...."

I know I ever hurt you so much, but you know I love more than forever

The first time he came to my life, when we were senior high school, I dont know but I always felt like there's a butterfly inside my tummy and my heart beat so fast when he chated me. The first time he sent me a voice note when I was birthday that I never forget. The first time we met..... I never thought what it means. He always makes me smile and life flows so easier than I could imagine. He's everything.  When I believe that he's the future that I cant live without. 

Now we're through life together, we're figure our future together. We're in the different college but that doesn't mean a thing. We have a different ambition but we have same dream. We're talk and laugh, we cried, dreams, we fight, we argue a lot. But no matter what, I just don't want to let him go. . 

The first year of our story and we still counting. count the months, year, even centuries. and hope the universe blessing....

I write this just to make the world know how big my dream to grow old with you, my 631 <3

100 TRUTHS ABOUT ME

FOR A LONG TIME I DIDN'T WRITE A BLOG SO LET ME WRITE "100 TRUTHS ABOUT ME"
and as a loyal readers (hehehe) u knew that I'm not wrote this for the first time! But this always kept my attention and I always wanna write it again and again with the different object ofcourse :$

100 TRUTHS ABOUT ME

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage = Frappe Chocolate

2. Last phone call = Agil

3. Last text message = received : Amy, send to: Amy

4. Last song you listened to = I dont wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith

5. Last time you cried = a few weeks ago (?)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice = YES

7. Been cheated on = OF COURSE

8. Kissed someone & regretted it = YES

9. Lost someone special = BIG YES

10. Been depressed = OFTEN

11. Been drunk and threw up = NEVER

FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. TOSCA

13. PINK

14. BLACK

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2014)

15. Made a new friend = YES

16. Fallen out of love = YES

17. Laughed until you cried = YES

18. Met someone who changed you = BIG YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

19. Found out who your true friends were = YES

20. Found out someone was talking about you =NO

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list = NO

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = I'm lazy to think about it

23. How many kids do you want to have =as Agil wants only ONE

24. Do you have any pets = NOTHING

25. Do you want to change your name = OF COURSE NO

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Just hang out with some of friends

27. What time did you wake up today = 06.00

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = SLEEP

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = My one and only agilzihnimawarid

30. Last time you saw your Mother = few hour ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? =MY MINDSET

32. What are you listening to right now = A song from Queen

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = NO

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Nothing (?)

35. Most visited webpage = Sonia Eryka's blog maybe?

36. Whats your real name = NIKEN SEKAR RINI

37. Nicknames = NIKEN

38. Relationship Status = IN A RELATIONSHIP

39. Zodiac sign = LEO

40. Male or female? = Female

41. Elementary? = SD XAVERIUS 4

42. Middle School = SMP NEGERI 1

43. High School/College = SMA NEGERI 15

44. Hair colour = Black and Blonde

45. Long or short = Long

46. Height = Forget

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Always with my bf

48: What do you like about yourself? =My confidence

49. Piercings = Yes

50. Tattoos = YEAH.................. temporary

51. Righty or lefty = RIGHTY

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery = Never

53. First piercing = Senior High School

54. First best friend = ELEMENTARY SCHOOL

55. First sport you joined =Shooting

56. First vacation = Ancol maybe?

58. First pair of trainers = Forget

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating = NO

60. Drinking = NO

61. I'm about to = NOTHING

62. Listening to =New Found Glory

63. Waiting for = HOLIDAY and my bf marry me:)

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids = OF COURSE

65. Get Married= YES, IT'S A MUST

66. Career = successful bank employee

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes? = Eyes

68. Hugs or kisses? = HUGS

69. Shorter or taller? = TALLER

70. Older or Younger? = OLDER

71. Romantic or spontaneous ? = SPONTANEOUS

72. Nice stomach or nice arms? = NICE STOMACH

73. Sensitive or loud ? = NOT THEM BOTH, I HATE THEM

74. Hook-up or relationship? = RELATIONSHIP

75. Trouble maker or hesitant? = TROUBLE MAKER

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger? = NO AND NEVER

77. Drank hard liquor? = NO

78. Lost glasses/contacts? = YES

79. Sex on first date? = MMMMMMM, BIG NO

80. Broken someone's heart? = I think YES

81. Had your own heart broken? = ALSO YES

82. Been arrested? = NO

83. Turned someone down? = YES

84. Cried when someone died? = YES

85. Lied to your bestfriend? = I EVER LIE, BUT A WHITE LIE

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

86. Yourself? = YES OF COURSE

87. Miracles? = YES

88. Love at first sight? = Maybe

89. Heaven? = OF COURSE

90. Santa Claus? = NO

91. Kiss on the first date? = YES

92. Angels? = YES

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? = YES LOL

95. Did you sing today? = YES OF COURSE

96. Ever cheated on somebody? = YES

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = when I was child

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = December, 31st 2013

99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = NO

100. Posting this as 100 truths? = OF COURSE

Un-named

Alfa Golf India Lima.

Thanks for coming to my life and makes my life brighter. Thanks for take me as I am. Thanks for everything.

Live your life

I need to be frequently looked down to realize myself that what I had in my life was perfect. I (almost) got what everyone else (almost) want. I had two parents who really get along, have a grandparent who until this moment still can give me money every month and be happy in his age, had a brother who although ignorant but I know he really cared about me, and now I have a niece who is very very funny! Everytime i wanna go, my mother always found time to take me. If I were hungry, I still could order McD by delivery, every month I can still buy the magazine to see the progress outside world although it's not always what I need. And sometimes if I want, I could buy some makeup and clothes online shop which (sometimes) after I bought it, I do feel regrets.

Should I feel my life is less? Should I often angry  when my mother didn't lend her credit card and atm if I want to buy something that looks like I already have or haven't been fully I need? Should I feel jealous when my friends have the latest gadgets and I have to whine to my parents? Should I feel sad for not being able to salon while other people haven't eaten a few days? Should I feel what I have is less when some people who have same age as my grandparents still have to work hard to feed his wife and kids?
I am not a very rich girl, my parents too, but I still can eat full everyday, I still can take a bath with a warm and clean water, I still can sleep in my soft bed and cover by a thick blanket.  I always try to remain thankful for what God has given me . I should be grateful by what I have because God can take it at any time, God can turn things around me in a flash,

I should really often look down to realize that what I want is not always what I need......

I miss and really LOVE my old life so much

Have you ever felt like your life is sooooooo flat and stuck? Yes I am...

And have you ever felt you are un-useful person? Again, Yes I am..

Ngerasa lagi bosen dan bener-bener kangen with my old life? Old life? Sebenernya gak ada yang bener-bener berubah sama hidup gue tapi gue ngerasa there's something different and I should move on, take a chance and never look back --ceileh--

Dulu gue gak kaya gini (random statement over the year hahaha). Gue kangen banget sama temen-temen gue dulu, DF, temen-temen SMP, ICHA, RENDY, Semuanya! Kangen pengen jalan-jalan, kangen pengen ketawa terbahak-bahak, kangen pengen seneng-seneng, kangen pengen melakukan sesuatu tanpa harus mikirin perasaan orang lain, kangen pengen ngerasa yg paling berkuasa. I don't wanna grow old. I miss my childhood life ;'(

Hidup itu memang selalu berubah yaa, berubah gak selalu jadi baik tapi juga kadang jadi lebih buruk, gue gak bilang lhooooo hidup gue yang sekarang lebih buruk, malah gue ngerasa ada beberapa hal yang jauh banget jadi lebih baik sekarang. Tapi yang dulu-dulu juga terlalu baik untuk dilupain.

But one thing I should really really do is gratefull with my God Allah cause He gave me everything I need. A perfect parents, perfect friend, wonderful life, money, and the last but not the least is BREATH :)

Actually all I want to share is my weakness here, tapi setelah dipikir-pikir kenapa harus kelemahan sendiri diceritain? Huehehe tapi above all, gue bener-bener pengen move on dari hidup gue sekarang. Apa sih yaa bahasa gaulnya itu out from the comfort zone. I should change. Jadi orang yang lebih berani (!), lebih mikirin diri sendiri dulu baru orang lain. I really need to be strong.

My random life as a Collegian

Hallooooo world!

To start my second blog this year, I'll tell you a bit about my new friends in college, fyi I am not a white-gray-girl anymore but it doesn't change me completely because I still a cute little daughter for my mom huehehe <3
 

Gak tau kenapa yaa, jadi anak kuliahan tu sebenernya enaaaaaaak banget, can use eyeliner and mascara, can mix n match outfit from top to toe rasanya enak aja, walaupun suka ada beberapa orang gitu yaaa yang kalo liat gaya kita aneh dikit pasti langsung diliatin, udah naluri alami manusia sih kayanya -_- but that's not a big problm kok.

Enaknya lagi, dosen itu gak kaya guru yang ngurusin banget mau mahasiswi nya masuk mau nggak, yang penting pas semesteran yaa nilai yg masuk yaa segitu. jadi sebenernya ada enak ada nggak enaknya juga sih.

This isn't what exactly I want to tell but it's about my friends. Jadi dikampus gue punya temen deket banget yang walalupun belum sedeket sama yayak tapi mereka baik banget care banget tapi ngeselinnya juga kebangetan. Ada 4 orang tapi yang 1 nya gak terlalu deket lagi karena beda kelas. Diantara mereka aku yang paling kecil umurnya, yang paling gede badannya (don't think that my body is sooo big cause the problem is they're body is so small thanks-I'm not that big), tapi yang paling penakut daaaaaan paling gak bisa diandelin. hiks. :'(

Here they are :

1. Rachmy Alfa Juliani 

 

Anaknya ini yaaa, hmmm kasih tau gak yaaa ;p panggilannya Amy, pacarnya namanya Daus, dulu pas baru kenal udah keliatan sih asiknya, cerewet, gak bisa diem, pecicilan, tapi kalo udah kesel sama kita-kita atau sama daus langsung deh keluar jurus Diam Tanpa Bahasa -_- paling banyak yang suka sama dia, kalo lagi jalan dikampus tuh yaa pasti sering banget deh dipanggil-panggil disiul-siul. Paling eksis dan hobi masak (r u kidding?)

2. Muthmainah Mutia

Panggilannya mumut, paling tomboi diantara kita-kita, sukanya sama band Rock (?), padahal dulu pas awal ketemu gak yakin kalo bisa akrab sama mumut, tapi sekarang malah dianterin terusss pulang kerumah ({}). Mumut itu anaknya perasa banget, kalo lagi badmood diem, kalo lagi laper diem, kalo sakit perut juga diem :D tapi kalo jahilnya keluar gak usah ditanya deeeeeh trs kalo mau 'nyugakin' (google translate if u dk the meaning ;p) paling jago. Bener-bener paling gak suka dandan tapi her eyes was so big and beautiful with natural eyebrows and bulu mata nya juga panjang. Trs juga paling tegas diantara kita-kita, jadi gue bener-bener wish I had her trait <3 

3. Endah Anggraini

Endah................... Hahahahaha satu kata aja : JOGOL =))

Tapi paling dewasa (hah!), paling baik, paling suka curhat masalah Dim*tiiiiiiitt* hehehe, paling tau tempat pempek enak, trs cantik juga walaupun selalu bilang mukanya kusem padahal gak banget -_- pinter, suka ngajarin, terus paling gak bisa nyuci. hahaha jadi dia itu kalau nyuci baju, baju yang berwarna pun dipakeinnya pemutih, so you know how the result ;)

They're complete my life, eventhough we have much different characters but they really taught me a lot of things abt life. We also have so many lack especially me, tapi mereka gak pernah ngeliat itu sebagai kekurangan malah mereka ngejadiin aku pribadi yang lebih baik. Kept my words, they're perfect as my bestfriend. 

Cheers!

My First Post

Actually this is not my first blog and this isn't my first time I forgotten my password too. It's been a long time I didnt write on the blog.  So now, like it or not, I should start it from scratch again. Readers, too many stories that I want to tell you. start of my fucking ex-boyfriend, my new life of school, my new friends, and my life is not always easy. If you ask me why I should make a blog again that's all because I can't believe everything-everyone except Me-My Self-I (That's why I use those words as the title of my blog). Okay, let's open a new page and forget all the bad memories that I have ever had. Love you all <3